Oy

Sooo much, sooo little time. I've got thank you notes to finish (yeah, they're going to be LATE), like 10ish hours of a jazz miniseries to watch, prep for college, on top of a LOT of work. With the weather good, I'm spending 40+ hours on work-related stuff all the time. Soo close to being done and leaving all this behind, just being a normal college student.

[For the record, I haven't particularly favored Lydia in like 5-6 months. Once I broke the trend at the end of December, I wised up and looked at things a little more objectively. She's still great, but definitely not for me, if ya know what I mean.]
But there's this girl. She's amazing(!!!). The more I get to know her, the more I am impressed with her. She's basically the type of person (male or female; needed a person like her) I was hoping to meet all last school year, but didn't. I know I've only known her for over a month, and don't worry, I'm not thinking way ahead or jumping the gun on trying to start something, or letting myself entertain thoughts of such, well, attempting not to. There was one point tonight (hung out with her and her youth group to watch Lakefair fireworks) when I had a very humbling experience: I felt out-classed in dedication to faith from what she was saying in the discussion she was having with her youth pastor. I haven't had that happen often. And I can't remember EVER having that happen with someone my age. I know I can't allow myself to think about a relationship with her, I'm leaving in under a month, and that's not right towards her, or myself. Then I start wondering why God placed her in my life now. I don't know. All I know is he has a purpose for it, and I *shouldn't* feel like I'm missing out. But I do. In my attractions to members of the opposite sex, once I've broken any infatuation, the person I end up being attracted to next has been better and closer to what I seek. And the last one was pretty good. And I'm closer and closer to being ready for a relationship. But I can't let this develop with no time, so unless God wants something to happen, I have to keep it inside. And that's going to be hard. So I need prayers. Lots of prayers. Something (from the third person perspective) like this "Lonely though Phillip is, Lord, please help him to wait on you and to follow your will over the will of the flesh. Please lead him to the right course of action towards Charissa, and help him to accept whatever that may be. And, if it be your will, please shift his hopes from Charissa to your promise of already knowing whom You will have him desire." You can make up your own words, but that's what I need help with.

Urgh, also need prayers cuz I got a girl going after me that I am definitely NOT interested in, and I can't be in contact with her or help her if she's going to stay interested. Sort of a "God, please get her off my back gracefully"

Work is going well, though it drags on the more I do it. We crushed the budget on the last house by like 15 hours though, so I'm getting about 7 extra hours of pay next paycheck, which is nice. :)

And I went to a card tournament in Portland yesterday. God delivered my opponent's into my hand, and I split prizes with the finalist, and won when we played later on with nothing on the line. So that's an extra $150, which I dig. Thanks Lord!

Thanks y'all, God bless,
Phillip